crunchy leaves, hoodies, and hallows eve.....

Alright... Halloween is almost here already. That is honestly my favorite holiday in the world. for more then one reason....
1. It is the only pagan holiday that is still celebrated appropriatly (Well that and may day).
2. I will honestly take a line from mean girls and say "this is the only time of year a girl can dress like a complete slut, and nobody will say anything!"
3. My Kids....and Candy... Those are the best part!

If you look close enough, about a month ago I got my nails done in "True Blood" demenor... I am thinking about dressing up as Lorena for halloween. But I am honestly having a draw.... Harley Quinn or Lorena.... Fill me in on what you might think... Please!!!

Well Moving is about to begin... Mike and I have found a beautiful apartment, that is about 2 times bigger than the one we are in now, and only 120 dollars more a month... This excites me! Also I won't have to deal with an "inspection" every single month. My God the landlord at this apartment stays up your ass, it is like you have 0 private life.

Michael and I also just bought a Ford Focus 2001. I have never even had a car over 1997, so this is actually something in my life that means a lot to me.

Michael and I just went through some really tough times. (not with eachother). And now things are starting to look up again. Hopefully I will be working back at the bar in a few days as well. I hope so. We sure could use the boost in the money.

So in the midst of collecting boxes, packing up, driving a new(er) car, My life is steadily improving. I can't wait to get into the new place, and add my home furnishing skills!!!

At the begininng of the year we are also going to have family pictures taken! So that is AWESOME too... So ready to have my kiddo's pics splattered all around the house!!!! :)

Not much else going on today....so I will leave you with that....and

When you find "The one" hold on to them forever, because they will be your shoulder to cry on, your best friend, and your liferaft!!!!

Blessed Be

-Sarah

My First day of Blogging.....

So,,,, This little girl is my whole life. Her Name is Willow. She is 3 years old, and she will be 4 in january.
She is the most intellegent little girl in the world. (and lets say I am not being biased). I mean she is only 3 and she can read, she can write her name, she can even color in the lines. Yes, most mothers get excited about their children doing things, but I think this is pretty well advanced for a girl her age.
    She also saved my life. From 17-20 I was a pretty messed up girl. I can now officially call myself a woman (IMO). When I was a teenager I was involved heavily in the drug circles. and we are not just talking pot, I probably tried every drug under the sun, but cocaine was my drug of choice. at 21, I got clean. I moved to Indiana, stumbled a couple times when I got here, but then changed my life. Shortly after that I met my now Ex-husband adam. And my pride and joy came along on January 10, 2007. At about 6 months into her life, I left her father. This was very very very hard for me. I struggled. But because of this "angel" I didn't turn back to my drug of choice. She saved me from that, depression, and falling basically completely on my face. So Needless to say this little girl is, and will always be "The Love of My Life".

Then....There is this man.... WOW. In one word that about sums him up. He is the man of my dreams, my everything, my everybreath, and as our "Cheesy" saying goes we are eachothers "Always & Forever." I met him about 2 1/2 years after my divorce. I was dating someone, who was verbally abusive, borderline physically abusive, and then to top it all off, had no life goals. He was literally living in his grandmothers basement, refusing to get a job, and smoking weed ALLLLLLLL the time. (As far as I know this person, who I will remain without a name, still has that same life, and now has a baby on the way, I really hope for "his" sons sake he will turn it around.) But anyhow, I met Michael in December of 2008. ( I actually met him because of my ex-husband, but he and I were already divorced for 2 1/2 years). We quickly became friends.
      That was just it FRIENDS. A lot of people to this day don't believe that, and in my sorted past I had struggles with becoming a friend with a "boyfriend" before anything else happened. But Michael and I Connected, our minds, our hearts, and our souls. On that first day.
      But like I was telling you, we were just FRIENDS. Of course I fastly started developing feelings, but I really did not want to break anyones heart (I have had my heart broken so much, I know the pain of it).
   Michael and I started letting our kids play together, talk on the phone, hang out at my job (lol, its wrong, but we did), and we became instant best friends. We have so much in common. Our humor, some of our musical tastes, our children,our love for tattoo's,traveling,rain,halloween,movies.....
   But mostly what attracted us to eachother...was that we were POLAR opposite on most things.
1. I'm Bull Headed/ He's Easygoing
2. He's Forgiving/ I'm Begrudging
3. He's a comprimisor/ I'm a Fighter
4. He has a huge heart/ I have the grinches heart.
But those are just a few of the things.... :)
I never EVER cheated on the guy I was with before I started dating michael, Michael pursued me for 3 months before I broke up with "him". 
And you know what... I was completely honest with "him". And HE WENT NUTS... He nearly killed me the day I told him "I am falling in love with Michael". I was totally honest in telling him that michael and I were friends, and that I thought Michael had the eyes of an angel. That day he literally almost "Killed" me. He punched a whole in the brick wall of his basement beside his head.....
So I pretended to make peace...until I went back home in corydon. Then I called and FINALLY broke it off with him that sunday...
So March 13, 2009...Michael and I began dating. That was the first time we held hands, The first time we Kissed, and I knew... I knew right then THIS IS THE ONE! 
  We Got Engaged on October 30,2009 We haven't legally gotten married yet, but in our hearts we are.
We even call eachother Husband and Wife.
   This man has picked me up out of my black hole. 2 weeks after we were together, I moved out of my ex husbands house, we now have our own place, and just bought a 2001 Ford Focus. I have never even had a car made after 1997. So that even excites me a little. HE MOTIVATES me... and I fall in love with michael a little bit more every single day!!!!!!

These 2 wonderful people are my HEROS!  They are my parents. My Mother, is now in remission from stage 3 lung cancer. She fought so hard to stay alive for her 4 wonderful grandchildren. My Brothers each have a child, a boy and a girl, and I have a girl, and a wonderful stepson. My mom keeps going just for them!!! She has been so strong, she had surgery on her lung, and now just underwent surgery on her back for the secondtime! and she is a Trooper.
   Her and I had some really hard times from 13-19 with me. Boy was a a childish little girl. I treated her so disrespectfully and let me just say that the drugs got the best of me. But when I gave birth to my little girl that all changed. My Mother is now and will forever be, my hero and my best friend. I go to her about everything. She gives me some of the most sound advice in the world. I love my mother with all my heart. and I am so glad that everything from my teenage years is now "Water under the bridge."
   Sure we still have our Spats here and there, but it is nothing like it used to be, I have matured so much since my daughter, and matured even more since michael came into my life.
   That man in that picture is my "POP/DAD". No he is not my biological father. But it doesn't take much to be one of those, just laying in a bed and playing. (If you catch my drift.) But he stepping into my mothers life when I was 2 years old, and fell in love with her, and her 3 children. Let's just say I am t-total 100% a daddy's princess. He spoils me. For my high school graduation he took me to California (and I had been dreaming about that place since I was 13 years old.)  He has stepped in financially so many times to bail me out of some kind of life trouble I have been in...(And someday I hope to pay him back every penny).
  Most of all though, He stepped in when I was 2, has loved my mom for 25 years, and has loved me for 24 years of my life. He is my daddy, and he loves me no matter how many times I fall. I have so much respect for how hard he works, and how much love he has in his heart... I am sure he would be embarassed for me to tell you this but I still get weepy eyed when I watch him cry every year at Christmas watching "It's a Wonderful Life". That is truly a movie that can wrap my pop up in a nutshell... BEST PARENTS ON EARTH!.

And this young lady is..... Me. I'm Sarah L. Wetzel. 26 years old, 27 in march. I have done a lot of growing in the past couple years. I would say my life has truly changed.
   You see that thing on my face???? Yeah that thing??? That is a "Smile."   I don't do that very often so most people tell me a I have a beautiful smile.
    I stand up for what I believe in. I tried out for a modeling gig with the "Suicide Girls" And I got accepted. I had some people in my family say some very very hurtful things for making that decision. But it's MY decision. Am I doing Nudity? NO. let me say that clearly...NO. I know I am a mother, of a 3 year old little girl whom I have to make an example for. I would never do that, for her benefit, and for the simple fact that my body belongs to my husband. Am I going to be posing in lingere? YES. But honestly how is that any different then girls wearing bikini's at the beach? And when someone can answer that question, then Maybe I won't do that anymore either.
  I have made my share of mistakes. But My daughter, My Husband, and My New life choices, aren't among that list. We were all Teen dummy's at one point. And I am still Young, I am still learning everyday of my life.
As of Today I know a few things. I love my parents. I love my daughter. I love my husband. And last but not least...I love Coca Cola Classic. If that is all I learn in life, then I am fine with that. But I truly believe that life is a road to wisdom, and everyday I gain something new.
   I guess that is all I have to say for now, I think I let you all have a peak in the window of what makes up my life today. As we keep going on this journey I hope to find that you all are interested in hearing my story, or maybe I will bore you to death, and nobody will respond. But I most certainly hope not. :)

For Today, Tonight, Tomorrow, and Eternity.....
    BLESSED BE